Living Day By Day

Update

2009-10-01T10:12:00.001+08:00

Another update from me. Got myself into some medical issue. So I’m not able to take part in the study visit. Feel kind of sad.

Not in a good term with my wife. I need her to be more expressive in order for me to understand with she wants.

Since last month until now, I have been facing money issues. Hope it will be gone soon.

Ok end here.

Update

2009-08-25T18:50:00.002+08:00

I started off today with a dawn parade. The sky was dark and raining. After the parade, I went to receive my Letter of Appreciation. I was kind of stunned when I was told that I have been awarded. I want to say thanks to those who have recommend me for the award. I really appreciate it.

Next, I have been bothered by next months expenses. As my wife had quit her job one month ago, I knew this is coming. I was pissed off when she tell me to accompany her to go for interview. I was thinking, she's a adult soon yet she don't dare to look for job or go for interviewing. I really don't know what to do or say.

Well, there's still my mum. She's very irritating sometime. She knew that my wife is not working. She will make all sort of comment. Even though, some of it is true. These comments will indirectly cause a fight between me and my wife. I tried to make her understand but she just don't care at all.

Lastly, I really hope that someone in this world would come and give me some help. I'm so depressed. I don't know what to do anymore.

May God bless all living beings.

Updating

2009-07-08T19:22:00.002+08:00

Here to update. Not much happened. Only got scolding from my boss due to some communication breakdown. Ha ha.

This few weeks, i feel so stressed up. My mind keep thinking and thinking. Unable to stop. Feel so tired. Don know when can rest my mind. Sad la.

Since the day i got in my current unit, i have learn a lot of things. From 'just do it' to learn to speak properly to senior commanders. Is worthy to learn.

I need to focus more on my job then day-dreaming when working. Is wasting my time and cope up all my job including re-doing my jobs again and again.

Haha. Ok end here

Just a update

2009-06-14T17:38:00.001+08:00

A update for my blog. My buddy, Kieth an Vincent, ORD today. HA HA. Now left my store man Zac, ORD on Nov. HA HA HA.

Wish them good luck.

Kind of feeling better after taking medicine.

Had a weird weekend. Was exhausted and cannot sleep. Luckily my wife asked me to go and sleep after work on Monday. I was surprised by her sudden kindness. I appreciate.

A happy birthday to my childhood friend, Mei Ling.

Now I have to plan a lot of things.

Will update when I'm free...

Take care everyone!!!!

Feeling sick...

2009-06-12T10:17:00.000+08:00

Today suppose to be on OFF. But got burned. Now feel so sick... Is a long time since I last took MC. I don't want to take MC. So bored staying at home and waste my time doing nothing.

Nothing much happened. Hope it will last forever.

Yesterday went home damn late. Around 10pm then reach home. And my wife waited outside my camp for me. Now feel sick and tired.

I wonder how am I going to recharge myself with so many things happening at the same time. I just want a 12 hours sleep. Pray that tomorrow can have a nice beauty sleep. To recharge my battery.

I was wondering what to do with after I completed my service.

Oh ya....

How are you, people? Hope your are well.... hahaha

Ok! End my nonsense here!

Going Crazy

2009-06-11T13:59:00.000+08:00

I was wondering how to forget a girl complete. Like I don't even know her. Basically I really wish I don't know her at all. I really wish everything can back in place like before. Wish that all the bad things did not happen. But it is too late to say all these. All the thing i don't wish to happen had happen.

Since then, i have started thinking about my action. I also remind myself on my actions and many more things. I wish everything is alright by now.

Now the only thing I focus on will be my studies. Even I'm serving NS does not mean I cannot study. HA HA.

Feeling sick for the whole week. Pray hard to the god.

OK end here.

Wish every one have a happy holiday.

140509

2009-05-14T08:26:00.000+08:00

Here's a update.

It have been a few weeks since my last update. A few things to say. Basically, the relationship between my wife and I have changed. Slightly to the better. I hope it will lastly long.

Since last week, i have not go for jogging. I missed the feeling of exhausted. The sweaty feeling.

HAHA.

Sometime I really don't know what to write on my blog.

My life is quite boring. Nothing special happened. So nothing special to write too.

I still cannot totally forget about her. She have been engraved on my mind, my thoughts. I hope she's well.

This few weeks i have a lot of work to do. The problematic part is that one of my two printer is down. So job slow down a lot. Don't know what to do.

OK. end here. Will update when i got something new.

17042009

2009-04-17T13:21:00.001+08:00

Long time since i last blogged. Quite a lot of things happened. For weekends, i did some house work and went out for jogging.

For weekdays, all i did is enjoy my time in camp. Work and also enjoy at the same time. HA HA. Thinking what to do too.

I have borrow a book called Lifeline: Life Beyond The Gene.

It is a interesting book. I have learn a lot of different point of view from different people on different jobs.

I haven complete my reading yet. So will continue to read. HA HA.

OK end here.

010409

2009-04-01T11:01:00.000+08:00

Back to update a little.

For the past few day was like relax and do work lor. Nothing much happened too. Kind of bored. Was wondering what to do for this coming weekend. Is more like burning my weekends. Haha.

Staying at home only makes me irritated by the sight of the tigress. Just don't know why. She reminds me of what happened. I can't get it out of my head. So stressed.

I have seek help from the family service center. I just want to know what to do. Need to understand the situation. Feel so stressed and confused.

For the past few days, I keep having the feeling of needing someone to love. Just don't know why. Hope it will go away.

Ok end here.

260309

2009-03-26T14:18:00.000+08:00

Today did nothing much.

Wake up at 0800 hrs, then eat my medicine given by doctor yesterday. Went back to sleep until 1130hrs then do some chores. When to library near JP but was closed until 1400 hrs. Then went to look for the family service center. Now at JE library.

Since yesterday until now, feel so sick. Cannot do much things. I also cannot sleep much, having body ache now. Last night i sleep at 1930 hrs until this morning 0800 hrs. Super long and full of power now. but cannot use the energy. So bored.

Ok end here.

240309

2009-03-24T14:53:00.003+08:00

Here to update a bit. HAHAHA.

Ok last week until now is quite busy with work. Then nothing much happened. More like busy in the day, free at night.

Went cycling on sun then went home to clean up.

Yesterday, went jogging after work lor. Then go home and sleep.

Last weekend until now, had a few fight with the tigress. The problem is getting out of hand. Need alot of patience.

Ok end here.

200309

2009-03-20T11:38:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was like a very tired day. Not enough sleep. Now still ok la. Wat i done was head home and sleep. hahahaha.

Nothing much can be done too.

Just now got the info. Feel sad now. But will forget about it. Cos no use la.

OK! End Here. HAHA!!

180309

2009-03-19T08:19:00.000+08:00

Didnt blog yesterday. Got nothing much to write. Was in camp until 6 plus then went home. Went jogging after tat.

Now very tired. No mood to do things. HAHAHA. The best part is having a in-grown toenail. I wonder how m i going to survive tml. HAHAHA

Today is the third day i didnt message her. This will go on until fate decide wat happen next. HAHAHA.

End here.

170309

2009-03-17T16:09:00.000+08:00

Today, woke up 4 am then fall back to sleep. Woke up again at 11 am. Do some house chores. Had my lunch then went out. Now at NLB near Bugis. Don know want to meet then anot. Feel so sian.

Yesterday i tried my best not to message her. today, i will do it again. Do until i forget about her. Until i had gone from her life. HAHAHAHA. *Evil Grin*

Now maybe go to temple to pray then rot around lor. Don feel like see the tigress. Very irritating. So bored. Tml going back to camp. HAHAHA! At last, can continue folding my paper crane. HAHAHA! Try to finish another 50 by this week. HAHAHA.

Ok end here.

Don Know Wat To Say

2009-03-16T15:48:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the day that everyday came to light. I don wanna to keep going like this anymore. Think I really have to vanish from her life. I know I will never stop loving her. In order to do this, I have to be gone from her life.

It's nice to be friend with her. But i cant stop loving her. I cant be a idiot keep going on like this. I don wan to hurt her in anyway. She's innocent . I'm the one with problem.

Only can pray for her and wish her well.

Don know wat to do next.

160309

2009-03-16T15:31:00.000+08:00

Here to update.

Last Friday, almost die from doing all the books. Have to rush through Thursday night. Fri took off went home and sleep. Battery totally flat from doing all the work.

Sat, attend a BBQ party. In the end, it was raining. Had to stop. Then have to clear up all the stuff. HA HA.
Then went back and shower. Watch TV then i start to fall a sleep. The whole night cannot sleep. My heart was like pumping very fast. I have to cover my face and block my sight. Just don want to see her.

Sun, went bowling together. had lunch at KFC. Then go home and sleep.

END HERE. Nothing much to say.

120309

2009-03-13T07:38:00.000+08:00

For today is nothing much la. Only thing that cause me very irritated was the last min job been sent in. Got to rush like a mad cow. So sad. Cant even sleep.

At night, i online with her. Talk a little while then i battery flat le. So i go and sleep. Woke up at 0645. Start work again. SIAN LAAAA..........................

Ok end here.

I miss her..............

110309

2009-03-12T08:33:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was a fun day. Went out with my buddys to DG to play LAN game. Was a cohesion organize by my buddy Jon Kuek.

Left the camp at 1145. Take train at Joo Koon to DG. Fall asleep during the journey.

Have a fun time looking for a place to eat. From BK to Yoshinoya to LJS. In the end, all eat LJS.

Then a ORD personnel, Cyril Chua, came and join us. Was invited by Jon Kuek. Jon is the IC for this event. So he call the shot. HAHA.

Had a fun time playing CS. Got killed the most during the game. HAHAHA!

Since morning, the moment i woke up, i was filled with her. Keep thinking of her until i started playing CS. When the game ends, i start to think of her again. Just don know why. So confused. Wanna to be with her but is something impossible. This is how i feel. She's a great person and very caring toward her friends. She also have her 'emo' side too. LOL! Just wish that she will be fine. HAHAHA!

OK end here!

Some things to say.....

2009-03-09T23:50:00.000+08:00

Today, nothing much. Only afternoon going out with my unit's buddy for LAN gaming at DG. From SAFTI go until DG. Very far. Haha.

Yesterday got sabo by my wife. Ask me wait for her until the shop closed by the time i reach. I don really like to be with her nowadays. Is something i cant explain in words. Is the feeling in it. No one wish to be like this but since it happen to be this way. So be it.

I failed my FFI for BMT recourse.

Too much to say. But whenever i think about it, makes me wanna to cry. The kind of pain i had until now is like carrying a stone in your heart everyday. The feeling was like ............. I don know how to describe.

I feel like kind of empty inside. Like something is missing. Shall be Love ba. It's being a long time i last feel loved.

Even though i'm a guy, i still need a little love to find the meaning to love on. I will be a zombie if there's love. (Think you guys outside have seem one.)

There's nothing i can do. Just do what i can do for her. I will always be in the shadow for her!

END HERE!

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2009-03-09T16:39:00.000+08:00

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